Doubts and Obstacles

Hello Jordan,

Let me just start out by saying thank you for your generosity. I’ll try to make this as simple as I can. For as long as I could remember, I have always felt guided into nightmares, and then survival. I’ve survived sexual abuse (multiple times/abusers) verbal abuse, neglect, and bullying (among other battles). I battle with complex PTSD, which basically means I have more than one source to relive. I am doing what I can to keep my soul from leaving. Being disattached from my body had been my normal state for a very long time. My therapist calls it “disassociation”. Right now, I’m trying really hard to hold on to it, but everything (my brain, my body, I think possibly my soul itself) wants my soul to retreat again. It doesn’t help that it truly seems like the harder I fight, the worse things become for me. 

Over the past 6 months, I have endured marks (especially scary to me are burns) on my body that disappeared within a half an hour at most. That began shortly after my soul “came back”. I’ve always seen and felt things most people would call hallucinations, but I know that they aren’t. This includes shadowmen, faces, and terrifying emotions. I feel insane writing this. Anyway, my rationale, honestly, scares me because it makes sense, most of the time. It says that the evidence is too strong to ignore: that all the odds are against me. It is completely reasonable to think there’s no hope. I try to convince myself to leave my logic behind, but that’s the only thing I had to rely on for the past.. say 6 years. 

I have found a path that I was told I’d burn in hell for. But, it is me.. all of it. I feel connected to a higher source, and I am reading on different things like manifestation, and different aspects of spirituality and even paganism. I don’t talk to my mom because of our differences. Well, mainly, I couldn’t take being ignored by her anymore. 

I am open to feeling the pain. I feel that’s what I need to do. But, I can’t convince myself that I’ll survive, well that my sanity will survive. My life is about facing my fears, but that doesn’t mean I have the strength to face all of them alone and at once. I feel trapped, like to fully survive with my essence intact, I need to face my demons. But, to survive physically (for my sisters) I must detach. Doing both isn’t possible. 

My current situation is rather bleak. I have no job. I tried working at Taco Bell, but the pressure (of everything) proved too much, and I had a nervous breakdown. To give you an idea as to my mindset on the day I got fired, I’ll tell you that I went to my friend’s grave (he died in March) and felt nothing. Nothing at all. Anyway, I live in a crowded trailer with my grandparents. I have absolutely no privacy. I can’t hang things up or do much that requires space or many objects. I try to write and meditate, but you can imagine the countless distractions I can’t avoid. I have no car, no cell phone. Basically, all I have is 2 suitcases of clothes, some shampoo and conditioner, and my laptop, and my sisters. 

I’m not exactly sure what I’m asking for.. possibly direction, or support, validation, or maybe some strange form of protection.... I don’t think I can hold on much longer. And I refuse to slip back to nothingness; I can’t let my soul detach again, no matter how dangerous it is for her to stay. I’m just hoping that you can help in any way. I just need a little more help. 

Thanks once again.

Heidilynn
Pennsylvania
Pisces 

Hello Heidilynn,

Thank you for writing in and sharing openly with me how you feel about your situation. There is no doubt you've experienced many challenges that many people don't face in a lifetime, but that doesn't mean you cannot overcome your challenges and completely change your future path. Of course, with all the obstacles you've faced, it will no doubt take substantial work and effort on your part to overcome where your soul has found itself. You mention a therapist in your message and it is wonderful that you're wise enough to seek professional help during your struggles.  Do you find therapy to help?  

Is there anywhere close to your home that you can walk from your home; perhaps a library or coffee shop that you can bring your laptop to and find a little peace and quiet to focus on what it is you want to focus on. I suggest to other people who write in about troubled home environments that if your home is not a place of peace and comfort, consider going and finding a place that can be your "go to" place. A place that you can escape to, even if for a few hours, to find a little peace.

Your soul is the beacon of the light that you possess that will ultimately help set you free from all the negativity you feel inside.  You may wonder how you find the light in your soul and that is a very good question. Finding the light doesn't happen overnight, but it exists - even in the darkest of situations. Have you read the website pages? There is a ton of information on the website and all of it has been written to help people learn about spirituality and the powerful energy of the light. Spirituality is about your inner self - the inner self that you describe as detaching so you can escape the negativity that surrounds you. Do you want to free your soul and heal yourself in order to be free from all the pain you carry? Perhaps you may want to start by checking out the pages I mention below.  

Perhaps you may want to start with this page:  

http://www.free-spiritual-guidance.com/Impossible-Situations.html

Some other suggestions:
How to evolve your soul
Understanding the energy of free will 

Remember that the power to overcome and be free exists within you, even if the darkness is overshadowing your soul's light.  IT is still there and it is stronger than you think.  

Love and Light,

Jordan Canon

Spiritual Advisor

Free-Spiritual-Guidance.com

How to Use Your Daily Pisces Horoscope

Pisces comes from the water sign, and the last sign of the zodiac. At first glance, it seems as though that nothing can be scrutinized from a Pisces. They are blessed with a little bit of personality from each zodiac sign. They are deeply empathetic, patient, gentle, friendly, and optimistic. They are also adaptable to any circumstances, might it be good or bad.

Likewise, Pisces are like social butterflies. They are easy going and are respected because of their likable traits. Nonetheless, Pisces are very idealistic. They prefer daydreaming as opposed to putting things into action. They would rather put matters under their intuition rather than working hard to investigate and learn things. For them, things always come easy and there is no need for hard work to be put in.

Pisces can also be a little mellow dramatic, clingy, and emotional. They can be a drag when their tantrums strike them. More so, they always have a hard time making up their minds. They can be optimistic one time, and be cynical the next. Their Daily Pisces Horoscope can be an effective tool to help them recognize these traits.

Your Pisces personality reading can help you know more about yourself. It can provide you with a whole view of how you are as a person and the reasons behind how you may think or behave. It can be a powerful tool to seek out spiritual guidance and spiritual growth.

Pisces Relationship Compatibility Reading

Pisces may have different relationship chemistries with other zodiacs. To find out if you are emotionally, sexually, and mentally compatible with one of them, get your Pisces relationship compatibility reading. It can be a reliable source to understanding how things are and how to use your learning to create better relationship chemistry. Here are the zodiac signs that best match a Pisces and the ones they have to work on with:

Pisces and Cancer are a perfect match. Both are emotionally and spiritually compatible. Cancer needs security and affection similar to how Pisces seeks love from their partners. This celestial union somehow can only be challenged with their points and views knowing that Pisces are idealistic while Cancer is practical. Both may be out of their comfort zones when it comes to this aspect, but rest assured that the way they see each other, communicate, and relate makes this match for keeps of the long haul.

Pisces and Scorpio unions are based on respect and understanding. Both come from the element of water, making them have high spiritual intuition to know and understand each other's emotions and thoughts. Scorpio can be the better half to push Pisces to put their dreams into reality while Pisces can teach their Scorpio mate how to relax and see the bigger picture of life.

Pisces and Capricorn is a match proving that opposites do attract. Pisces is full of their daydreams, while Capricorns have strong work ethics. More so, Pisces can be emotionally inclined, while Capricorns are emotionally independent individuals. Nonetheless, Pisces are attracted to Capricorn's tenacity, while Capricorn admires Pisces compassion and wit.

Pisces and Sagittarius is a relationship that can be difficult on the emotional side. Pisces is known to be clingy and emotional, while Sagittarius does not care less about the feelings of others, making this union out of balance. If the water element in Pisces can learn how to adapt with Sagittarius' independent and secretive attitude, then this relationship may still work out.

How to Customize Your Daily Pisces Horoscope

The universe is constantly communicating with us. It uses its innate force to guide and help us achieve the dreams we have in life. We too, may learn how to communicate with the universe using the laws of attraction. By simply customizing your daily Aquarius horoscope, you will be able to send out your inner thoughts to the universe.

If you do this correctly, the universe will hear you and would be happy to harness all its force for you. To do this, you have to visit your daily Pisces horoscope. Then, cut and paste the portion you want to customize to any Word document. Make sure you do this with depth and understanding. Here is an example of you can personalize your reading. The ones in quotations would be your own version.

Have a free and easy outlook on life, "with a free emotional nature." To be emotionally tied down can harm you. Be open "and honest" with your emotions. Your philosophies "and ethics" in life are instilled to you through your early childhood "and should remain throughout your life." Have a deep interest in higher learning "and a strong curiosity about things," which can lead to long distance travel, "and success in arts and work environment."

By carefully customizing your daily Pisces horoscope, you become aware of the things you give value and importance to in life and how to achieve the things you want to pursue. It is one effective way to spend a little time and energy to attract the universe to guide you.

Jordan Canon
Spiritual Advisor
Free-Spiritual-Guidance.com

Tips For Being In A Relationship With A Pisces

Pisces when in love sets no boundaries. They are the most romantic and passionate of all zodiacs. They have this fantasy notion when it comes to love. If you are looking for people who still believe in happy endings and fairy tales, then they are the first one to bet on.

They are compassionate and forgiving. They are confident in themselves and know what they want and how to get it. There are no insecurities, so you can expect a relationship full of romance and happiness.

Their passion for romance is innovative and imaginative. They never run out of simple and extravagant ideas to surprise and make their lover happy. They are submissive, and would prefer a partner to dominate them. They can be indecisive, and need someone to help them organize their thoughts.

Pisces are loyal lovers. For their entire lifetime, they may only love one person.  Even if it becomes hard, they have no thought of leaving their partner. They do love to rush things. They are not mindful of their actions, and can be clingy and emotional. Pisces are lovers who are for keeps.

Consider these free astrology readings to learn more about Pisces:

• Daily Pisces Horoscope 
• Pisces Personal Astrology Reading 
• Pisces Relationship Compatibility Reading

Positive Traits Of Pisces Lover

Pisces are flexible and adaptable in all things. They may not be social butterflies, but they know how to observe, adjust, and accept change. They are easy to be with, and as a lover, they are never choosy. They can be attracted to many things, and can settle for romantic illusions and fantasies much of the time.

Pisces people are helpful and generous. They would not hesitate to go out their way to help, even with the slightest of troubles. They tend to give up so many things for the sake of their lovers. They value relationships more over money, fame, and career. They can make their partner feel special in so many ways.

Lastly, Pisces are very understanding and forgiving. They normally don't jump to conclusions and always weigh things and go towards the logic side. They don't have the inclination to judge people and they would not even dare to pry. They are appreciative and always value privacy and freedom of their loved ones.

Negative Traits of Pisces Lover

Pisces are mysterious individuals. At the start, they can appear unemotional and detached. They do not easily trust anyone. Sharing their thoughts, emotions, and experiences are something that needs to be done over time. It can take days, months, and even years before they fully lay all their cards on the table for their lovers.

They can easily be manipulated.  They are weak and would prefer someone who can guide them and teach them the way. Nonetheless, they don't like to be controlled. Like others, they also value their independence.

Pisces are overly sensitive. They can get hurt easily, especially when their lover does not appreciate them. And because they are expressive of their emotions, they expect others to get how they feel and how to deal with their tantrums. Also, Pisces have low self-esteem. They need constant reassurance and confirmation to feel they are well-loved and appreciated. Sometimes, they can even demand time and attention simply to satisfy their ego.

How To Attract a Pisces

It is easy to attract a Pisces. They like to have interesting conversations about life, adventures, and current facts. Someone who can keep a conversation going and keep up with their minds is a sure catch for a Pisces. Someone who is strong and has their own sense of direction in life can make a Pisces head over heels. They like someone who is decisive and knows what they want, with big ambitions and who knows how to get what they want in their lives.

Pisces are also easily attracted to someone who is caring and sensitive. They enjoy receiving sweet compliments and being showered with gifts. The truth is, they need the simple ways of appreciation to feel that they are secured and well loved. Lastly, someone who is straightforward and honest will really attract a Pisces. They don't trust easily, and someone who is transparent about everything and can give them assurance of undying and faithful love is a sure win.

Don'ts with a Pisces

Pisces are very sensitive. They don't like people who are judgmental and those who can put them down easily. They don't like nasty words thrown at them or being involved with heated arguments. They are peace-loving people, and would prefer to stay away from trouble. They want their lovers to understand them and support them all throughout. They never like side comments and those who discourage them from doing the things they want.

Pisces also don't like people who brag about things. They are not materialistic and don't like people showing off or throwing things up in their faces. They like simplicity and people who can just be themselves.

What Pisces Needs From Their Relationship

Pisces needs a strong and serious relationship. They rarely open up to someone or accept the fact that they are truly in love. They can even ignore the thought of it, but once they do enter a relationship; they need someone who can give them their all.

They love being in a fantasy relationship. They always have this melodramatic ever-after notion about love, and they expect their lovers to depict fairytale love stories. They want to be romantically wooed and be loved in the grandest way.

Pisces are sensitive. They need a relationship with someone who is concerned about their thoughts and feelings. They need a partner who can respect their needs and emotions. Although, they are peace lovers, they can also be temperamental. They need someone who knows how to pacify them. A person who can actually read their minds, their attitudes, and their feelings is a great match for a Pisces. Finally, Pieces need a relationship that is full of learning and adventure. They need someone who can complete them and give them the best love there is, which they actually deserve.


Jordan Canon
Spiritual Advisor
Free-Spiritual-Guidance.com